Ray Wilson & Stiltskin – Unfulfillment

The silence of night, street light through the window. I’m sitting here alone, me and my shadow. AN empty glass and three more cigarettes. I’ve been here before, but this one’s the toughest yet. My mind can’t sleep, to forget about it all. I’m still here alone, me and my shadow. I wish I could remember before, the way I used to feel. I’ve written it down somewhere.

Accidents will happen.

I guess it’s all about time that I should be leaving, a change of scenery. Sitting here’s just a no win guarantee.But first I’ll draw he curtain, get some rest or sleep. Just a little time for me. I hope that you are watching. I hope that you can see me. From afar I look ok.With no thing really left and no need to be right. There’s only dust down the centre of life. And I don’t have a peaceful moment.

Accidents will happen (I fight, alive, I must) (I’m down and broken) (no use to fade or die) (It would be hopeless)

Breath with me, I try to awake youth stop you leave. I scream at the heavens, why won’t you help me. I knew it was too late. No hope no answer. With I had remembered to say. I love you.

Accidents will happen (I fight, alive, I must) (I’m down and broken) (no use to fade or die) (It would be hopeless)

From the west side to the east, south side to the north. Life begins to sing. A melody you know, with rhythm from the Gods. Peace and harmony, is still aware of you. While you wait for something worth. It’s a gift in a year of hope. It helps you from your knees. Don’t ever feel alone these days. It’s all about face.Smile you will be there. 

Pour light on my life. Light on my face. Light on my head. For there I should be. Here in the place. Don’t need a reason. Leaving’s more than just a memory for me. 

You know you really feel the curse. Teeter on the edge. But never look down. Just listen to the words, the ones that you should say to yourself. And if things really get unclear, a little too unclear. Remember it could be much worse. I can tell you this here and now. When you start to count the days, till you feel better now. It’s all about to change. Smile and you will be there.

Pour light on my life. Light on my face. Light on my head. For there I should be. Here in the place. Don’t need a reason. Leaving’s more than just a memory for me. 

Looking inwards, from the outside. You see it clearer. A tower of strength is waiting. All the words you think you want to say. No not me, yeah you. From the west side to the east, south side to the north, and everywhere around you, all around you.

Pour light on my life. Light on my face. Light on my head. For there I should be. Here in the place. Don’t need a reason. Leaving’s more than just a memory for me. 

On the seventh day, the sunlight had melted the ice. The steam on the window, had crystallised the night before. And you reached out for the warmth in my hand. On the seventh day.

And now you know my heart can be broken. And I wait a lot and I wonder about what you’re doing now. And I guess I’ll never know it. I look into my mind and ask why. Nothing seems to change. Not anymore for me. On the sixth day I saw you cry for the first time. The day before you realised time was running out. The fourth day, I felt it, I was alive. The third day, Time just few by. And now I feels like life is over. And so I wait a lot. And I wonder about what you’re doing now and I guess I’ll never know it. I look into my mind and ask why. Nothing seems to change. Not anymore for me.

Crazy Girl, you’re crazy. On the second day we both knew. We’d have to forget. The last day are the promise. The promise I regret and you let go of the warmth in my hand. On the last day. And I guess we both know. It’s over !

So we wait a lot. And we wonder about what we’re doing now. And I guess we’ll never know it. Look into your mind and ask why. But nothing seems to change, not anymore for me.

And I followed my heart, like you told me to and I’ve given you all. Every friend I have can see it. Shouldn’t be alive without a reason. That reason was you. Not anymore for me.

Hey Ma ! I wanna be a rock star.

I told all my friends and bought myself a guitar.

Well the voice of disbelief was deafening.

They look upon their faces, almost threatening.

All that you could hear were cries of laughter.

Someone even said I was a disaster, can you believe it ?

Hey Ma ! I wanna be a rockstar.

I told all my friends and bought myself a guitar.

Well the voice of disbelief was deafening.

They look upon their faces, almost threatening.

All that you could hear were cries of laughter.

Someone even said was a disaster, can you believe it ?

Maybe you’ll be pleasantly surprised, you’d be right to trust me.

I believe the ghost of good news is gonna be haunting me. Why ?

I’ll never know.

Maybe soon I’ll find out, I guess I’m in with a shout.

Never know if you don’t try.

I don’t know I don’t ask why.

The voice of Disbelief. Said the voice of Disbelief. 

Hey Ma ! I wanna be a rockstar.

Hey Ma ! Why are you not listening ?

Why are you not listening ?

If she erupted always another day,
Don’t be hard on yourself
You wake up and dust yourself down
You say “Never again”

Forget it, it’s too late now
You’ve still got me as your friend
So why don’t you come stay tonight
It’s better for you that way

Focus on love, focus on real
And know that you’re a friend of mine

If you need a little time for yourself
You know where to find me
If you need a little hope for your soul
Give me a call
No love in darkness, only in light, only in light
Today is the first day of chang

Try to remember, try not to regret
No one never said peace was easy to get
Someday you’ll be lonely and I will appear
Just like a ghost, but don’t fear me

Forget it, it’s too late now
You’ve still got me as your friend
So why don’t you come stay tonight
It’s better for you that way

Focus on love, focus on real
Just know that you’re a friend of mine

If you need a little time for yourself
You know where to find me
If you need a little hope for your soul
Give me a call
No love in darkness, only in light, only in light
Today is the first day of change

Focus on love, focus on real
And give yourself a chance next time
If you need a little time for yourself
You know where to find me
If you need a little hope for your soul
Just give me a call
No love in darkness, only in light, only in light
Today is the first day of change.

Are you mystified by what I say?
Do you understand it takes a lot to feel that way
Are you leaving now, please don’t look back
In many ways your presence makes it harder to ask
Will you take the feeling of loss away with you
Never to return, you know I would be grateful
Please don’t think that I’m not grateful, ’cause I can feel it

I’ve been mystified by my sacrifice
But I wanted to belong to you
But I was too young

I remember that time, sleeping in the back of a car
Parked on some side street, so people couldn’t see us
We were living day to day, the kids too young to remember
Some things just seem to stay inside throughout the years

And if the fears I had haven’t changed
I guess it’s not the best way to behave
And if it’s all that I can have
You really should remember
That I can feel it

I’ve been mystified by my sacrifice
I wanted to belong to you
But I was too young
And I could write the book about my sacrifice
I wanted to believe you
But I was too young

Too young, too naive
Seems so long ago
But I remember you
Just like yesterday
Like a nightmare I can’t wake
I just go on sleeping

And I’m mystified by my sacrifice
I wanted to belong to you
But I was too young
And I could write the book
I could tell you all
I wanted to believe you
But I was too young

I wanted to believe you
But I was too young

She flies into space, he just waits and counts the days
There’s so much he needs to say to her
The crime is not to believe, given time it eats away
Until you feel that you can’t take no more

You brace yourself for something worse, just in case she’s gone
Nothing makes you safe, you can’t rely upon
You hate to admit to yourself, you’re hanging on a prayer
Nowhere you can run, something you’re depending on

The fear is here again (The voices in my head, ghosts within my soul)
I’m lying in my bed, waiting for a friend
She flies, she flies (Waits and counts the days)
Till you feel that you can’t take no more

Your self-belief and dignity is there but only just
A cradle holds her soul, you just can’t let it go
A crime, even impunity are dreams you hold so dear
For the sake of love, for the sake of all of us

Pour some dark on me, I don’t feel so good
Hold the light up, I need to see you

You brace yourself for something worse, just in case she’s gone
Nothing makes you safe, you can’t rely upon
You hate to admit to yourself, you’re hanging on a prayer
And for the sake of love, for the sake of all of us

Guns of God, cause it’s not your god. Take it away from, eliminate all of. Praise your Allah. Guns of God, giving no hope of. Draining the life out. Killing the soul of. The Fool is in me, driven by love. I’m hungry and older with fear and anger, playing the part. It should have been the role of peace and hope.

Shallom. I ease into your sleep. And count the lives like sheep. Our hopes go up, in flames. But spirits never die.

In the calm of the day I feel the heat of the sunlight. The old bones may be frail now. But miming still hates what they did to my family. And all they took from the people here. Left with nothing but memory. And fear and hunger. Playing the part. She could have been the rose in my garden of eden.

Shallom. I ease into a sleep. And count the life like sheep. our hopes go up, in flames. But spirits never die.

Guns of god, cause it’s not your god. Take it away from, eliminate all of. Parise your Allah. Guns of God, giving no hope of. Draining the life out. Killing the soul of.

Old man, take a look into the mirror and what do you see.

Young boy. Keep an eye on the side line.

Life is a prison, not what you make it and somebody sentenced me.

And now with the age I’m showing, nobody helps me.

Look at my portrait, lines on my face.

The many years, the windom. 

And you ask me.

Is anything worth knowing ?

I found no good in anyone or anything at all, until I found me.

Old man, take a look into the mirror and what do you see.

Some people, some people, think they know it all.

And wherever you stand, be the soul of that place.

That’s what my friend used to say, in so many different ways.

Am I satisfied ?

Yes, I’m satisfied.

I found no good in anyone or anything at all, until I found me.

Old man, take a look into the mirror and what do you see.

Young boy. Keep an eye on the side line. Keep an eye on the side line.

In spite of this, I still see. 

Alive in bliss, heavenly.

I found no good in anyone or anything at all, until I found me.

Days are going.

Days are long gone.

Life ain’t holding.

Life’s dissolving.

Counting down the days.

I Pray, I Pray.

I found no good in anyone or anything at all, until I found me.

Until I found me.

Old man, take a look into the mirror and take a look into the mirror, and keep an eye on the side line.

Keep an eye on the side line;

You ought to be resting, believe it or not
The dream is finally over, the culprit has been caught
The winds of change are blowing, a chill is in the air
And to the left and to the right, defeat rings everywhere
A flame put out with water, was suffocated first
It’s freezing cold or excessive heat and it’s hard to know what’s worse
You’re caught up in the system, it’s controlling all your days
Your motioning is irrational, and your thinking out of phase
You ought to be resting…